When did I become so obnoxious?

This isn't me. I've never been like this. I don't recognise myself in these words, in these thoughts, in these atitudes. When did I change? How did I change? I never saw it coming and now I don't like what I see and how I feel. I don't want to get bitter and alone. I want to go back. Not making anyone suffer. Endeavour what I have to without harm for those around me.

I'm tired. Just tired of beeing mean.